Category Archives: Miscarriage

Remembering Adora

Posted on June 22, 2012 by sugarmapleoflife

One year ago yesterday we found out that we were expecting Adora.  I was so giddy and had free time in the morning to really revel in the news.  I spent time in our back yard that morning.  Our yard … Continue reading →

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Two Week Wait-Take 13

Posted on June 17, 2012 by sugarmapleoflife

I am so frustrated with being in this space again that I almost don’t want to write about it.  We had really good numbers last cycle with no luck.  This cycle our numbers are way down and I had to … Continue reading →

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2 Eggs & Two Week Wait-Take 12

Posted on May 19, 2012 by sugarmapleoflife

I feel my hope rising this cycle which scares me. Hopefulness seems like setting myself up for even more disappointment. This is the most promising cycle so far. It is the first time I have had 2 mature follicles and … Continue reading →

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Saying Good-bye to Adora

Posted on May 11, 2012 by sugarmapleoflife

Every month on the 11th I am reminded of my precious Adora.  The truth is I think of her every day, but the 11th carries a heavier weight.  It was 9 months ago today that I delivered my first baby.  … Continue reading →

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“Great is Thy Faithfulness”

Posted on May 6, 2012 by sugarmapleoflife

My relationship with music says a lot about my mood as it does with many people.  I am a singer, but not a professional one.  I have sung solos at some weddings, and sung in choirs and ensembles.  My ability … Continue reading →

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Grief and Over-Identification With A Duck

Posted on May 4, 2012 by sugarmapleoflife

The past 24 hours have been rough for me and I find myself over-identifying with a duck (I’ll get back to that).  We found out last night that this cycle was a failure.  On the voicemail the nurse said “if … Continue reading →

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Don’t Ignore Your Friends: 10 Ways to Support Someone Struggling with Infertility

Posted on April 27, 2012 by sugarmapleoflife

This post was inspired by the article posted Wednesday, April 25th, on The Huffington Post.  The backlash that it received was surprising to me and made me want to respond. http://www.huffingtonpost.com/mobileweb/tracey-cleantis/infertility-16-things-you_b_1449350.html I personally think that Tracey did a brilliant job … Continue reading →

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Another diagnostic ultrasound

Posted on April 17, 2012 by sugarmapleoflife

I get so tense every time I go in for an RE appointment.  Everyone there is very nice and very professional which helps, but that doesn’t alleviate my distress.  It is much better than not knowing what is going on … Continue reading →

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I hate that word

Posted on April 11, 2012 by sugarmapleoflife

I know I am not the first person to say it, but I absolutely hate the word miscarriage.  I did not miscarry my babies.  I protected them with gentleness and ferocity.  No alcohol, caffeine, raw egg, blue cheese, lunch meat, … Continue reading →

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One Step At A Time

Posted on April 10, 2012 by sugarmapleoflife

I am feeling pretty conflicted about starting a new round of fertility meds today.  It was only a week ago that we had a glimmer of hope and 5 days since that hope was crushed.  It seems disloyal to start … Continue reading →

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